I’m Back

Hi friends

Wow, this is a hard post to write. Firstly I have to start by saying that I have really missed you guys and I am starting to feel better about slowly getting back to blogging. It feels like I’ve been in limbo and the last few months have been so hard. I have missed joining the regular fun link-ups and writing some of my other articles. Please know that I always love and appreciate you stopping by for a read and your comments always encourage me so much.

Sad News

My beautiful mum passed away on the 19th of March. Only three weeks after she was first diagnosed with late-stage pancreatic cancer. This was so unexpected as she had initially gone into hospital as a result of a nasty fall. She recovered from the fall like a champ! But while she was in the hospital the doctors ran a whole bunch of tests and made this horrible discovery. As a family, we spent every possible moment with her and we were all with her when she took her last breath.

I wish you could have met my mum. She was very funny and extremely cheeky! Although she didn’t have an easy life I have to say that she always liked to be happy and was up for a chat with everyone and anyone. She often spoke Spanglish and was sometimes hard to understand. Her ability to mispronounce words often had us both in stitches. She loved bright colours, fashion, Fuschia lipstick, and disco music. She lived with us for eight years and I really miss her.

Back To My New Normal

After taking most of the first Term off from work I have now gone back. Initially, it was really tough getting used to my new daily routine without my mum. But it’s been good to be back at preschool with my lovely work colleagues who have been so kind, supportive, and very understanding.

Extra Thankful

I am also extra thankful to be back at work with my little preschool children. I really missed them while I was away! It’s interesting how after going through such a great loss I find myself appreciating EVERYTHING so much more.

I am also beyond grateful to have many really wonderful friends and family! So many reached out via phone calls, texts, messages, and visits. I had flowers, care packages, and dinners delivered to my house. My friends and family were there for me on the days I was a blubbering mess and could barely put one foot in front of the other. I have also reconnected with many old friends too and I am determined to keep these connections ongoing because hey, life is so short!

Faith

As a Christian, I know that I will see my mum again as I have hope in eternal life through Christ’s death and resurrection. I know that she is in Heaven with God, but I would be lying if I didn’t admit that I would much rather have her here with me.

A New Normal

Some days are better than others. Getting used to life without my Mum is going to take time. I know that I will never stop missing her but I also know that there is healing and eventually my heart will stop feeling so desperately sad.

“After the rain, the sun will reappear. There is life. After the pain, the joy will still be here”

Walt Disney

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26 thoughts on “I’m Back”

    1. Ruth(playworkeatrepeat)

      Thank you so much Lisa. Sorry to hear about your Mum. Just like you, I don’t think I will ever stop missing my dear mum. xx

  1. I’m so very sorry to hear about your Mum, you have my sincere condolences. I lost my Mum in a similar way, she went into hospital for one thing, was diagnosed with end of life cancer and lived for just weeks afterwards. It’s a real shock and my heart goes out to you. I’m glad you have your family around you and work to keep you occupied.

    1. Ruth(playworkeatrepeat)

      Thank you so much Anne. So sorry to hear about your Mum too. Yes, it really is such a huge shock that you can never imagine or prepare for. Sending much love xx

    1. Ruth(playworkeatrepeat)

      Thank you so much Carol. I often catch myself thinking I have to tell her this or that. And then I remember xx

  2. So sweet to read about your mom….as well as the sweet relationship you shared! Praying God gives you much grace in the weeks and months ahead! Isn’t it wonderful that, as Christians, we do not grieve without hope!?

    1. Ruth(playworkeatrepeat)

      Hi Jennifer, thank you so much for your lovely comment. So true that we do not grieve without hope! I love 1 Thessalonians 4:13-14. This verse has given me so much comfort xx

  3. I’m glad I checked in today to see if you were back. I’m so sorry about your dear mum, you’ve written a lovely post about her and how you are doing. Take care and nice to “see” you.

  4. My condolences on your mother’s passing, Ruth. Your shared memories of her are beautiful and set an inspiration for us all to seek for and savor happy moments. Much love, Liz in NC

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